I stand before You in awe
I stand on the soft sand
amidst hundreds of footprints
going in chaotic directions
ugly 'scars' left from boisterous play
ruins from a castle
fortified with deep trenches
waiting for the sea...
A wave breaks close enough
to push water into the outer furrows...
the harshness of the edges
soften under the watery onslaught
again
again
again...
the footprints disappear
holes and trenches fill up
the surface flattens out
into stretches of shiny
peace...
A strange quietness
descends on me...
this is Your hand
this is You!
this is restoration
made visible
this is the work of
persistent
patient
abundant
LOVE!
I sit down in wonder
allowing
revelation to
sink like water
into the sand of my soul...
Hesitantly
I reach down,
carefully exposing
only a tiny, painful part
...spreading out
the chaotic footprints
scars and furrow-wounds
to the immensity
of many waters
waiting...
waiting for the tide
to rise...
Comfort becomes a gentle mist
surrounding and isolating me
to the private session
with the sea
as it reaches
the first scars,
touching, retreating
reaching out further
retreating...
as if waiting for my consent!
Wave after wave
persistently pushing further
gently covering more
lovingly remoulding...
Pure love
washing over
memories of pain,
memories of shame
love eroding
love restoring
love creating
unique new patterns
in the sand
leaving unspoilt peace!...peace!
This sea I can trust
to this I can surrender!
As oppression and turmoil
melt into relief
I reach deeper down
into my heart
with newfound confidence!
Have my whole coastline, Lord!
I surrender to the power
of Your love
watching in wonder
as You patiently
restore
all
of me
to innocence
and purity...
dazzlingly
reflecting the beauty
of the Son!
You make me fly
Shout His love
Desperately needy am I for you
Your presence
covers me
like a heavy blanket...
I breathe LIGHT!...
thoughts evaporate
brain-activities cease
as spirit
meets Spirit
in utter
wonder, awe and
PEACE!...
heaven's fragrance
like a jewel-like,
living mist
pours into my space
spiraling down
into perfect
STILLNESS...
it's You
ministering
to me...!
I simply 'am'
in the presence
of the Great...
You are the Lord, the Almighty
He saw the race set out for Him
He saw the suffering and shame
He saw the horror of the cross
He saw life bursting from the grave
and heaven exploding in worship and praise
as He entered heaven's holy of holies
to present the blood
of the ultimate and final sacrifice...
He saw His glorious bride
seated with Him at the wedding feast
He saw His Father's approving smile
and
He did what He had to do.
My parents have struggled financially for years (almost 10 years now). Through these tough situations is how I actually came to rely on God and give my life over to Him (2004-ish). Through the years, my parents have asked me for money and sometimes I’ve loaned them money and sometimes I haven’t. Early on through wisdom from elders, I learnt that I should never “loan” money, I should rather “give” money with no expectation of receiving it back so that there is freedom in giving and no guilt put onto a relationship or a person. This was difficult for me as I thought in order to honour and respect my parents (a commandment) I needed to help them when they needed help. I had to make a stand for Jesus in my life and say that I couldn’t help them financially anymore. I had to separate myself from my earthly parents and follow what my Heavenly Father says is right and true. 2 Corinthians 12:14 “… After all, children should not have to save up for their parents, but parents for their children”.
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